Helpless or Heartless?

I can’t help.

It’s all I could ever do for anyone and

I

Can’t

Help

You.

And I can’t help me.

And I can’t help

Anybody.

So what does that make me?

Helpless or

Heartless?

Because you have to have a

Heart to

Help.

And if I can’t help

You,

And I can’t help

Me,

What am I?

I watch you try to destroy yourself and

Do

Nothing.

So then I go home and help myself

To some helpless and

Heartless destruction.

I can’t help.

I can’t help you.

But most of all,

I can’t help it.

Heartless or helpless?

How do you Understand Yourself?

How do you understand yourself?

Do you have to go on

Great journeys

To find yourself?

Discover all that you are

Capable of?

What do you have to do?

Because I don’t

Understand

Myself.

I can’t tell how I’m

Feeling,

Or what I’m

Thinking,

Or even what I

Want.

Am I sad? Or happy?

What makes me wake up

In the middle of the night in

Tears?

Why does my stomach feel sick?

Is it butterflies?

Or nausea?

How do you understand yourself?

I Never Knew

I never knew.

I never knew how much of a burden it was.

I never knew how horrifying an idea it is.

It’s different when it’s you;

When it’s your problem.

It feels like it’s all on you,

And even if you tell someone,

There’s nothing they can do about it.

So why would they dwell on it?

I never knew.

I never knew until now.

I never knew how horrible it feels.

To know what could have happened,

What you could have lost.

And it scares me.

That I could have had as huge an impact on someone,

As he did on me.

I never knew how much I’d regret it.

I just…

I never knew.

And now I do.